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went to Gp yest.reach bout 1.30.met some frens at the 7th floor.went to Breeks to hv my lunch.chicken patie melted and spring stampler.saw the same gang agn.lol.they're havin a drink at starbucks.while having my meal,Eugene called me.he's with Andros.the emo king.lol.afer that went to Megaque to meet jolyn,fennie and their frens.they're going for a mv.i wanted to watch tat mv too bt it's a very long que at the counters.so...me n my fren,Kwang planned to go in with used tickets.(bad kids).kinda scare at 1st.worry of getting caught.bt entered the cinema safely at last.the mv titled'They Wait'.it's a scary mv.CNY watch tis kind of mv....it's quite scary especially the female ghost named shen lu appears.went to Manila Place to hv our tea time as Jolyn said that she did nt tk her lunch yet and was vry hungry.i've promised to traet her a meal so i hv to keep my words.she ordered a bowl of Unagi rice and peach tea while i ordred 1 glass of lemon tea.(nt vry nice actually).went to Sega after that.ordered 1 bucket of Heineken,1 Vodka and another 1 dunno wad name.lol.I love Heineken!played cards while having our drink.after that,Jolyn and Fennie accompany their fren,Feon to gt a pair of new shoes while i went to Megaque agn to meet my frens.Had 2 games of pool with Kenneth.kinda unlucky.lost 2 rounds.after that went to Chopper board with gene and Davidson.had a cup of cold Ginseng.(nice).went to car park at 4th floor.(did somethg^^).went to CYC after that.after Davidson's gf came by we walked bck to Megaque agn.sis called.she wanted to hv her dinner.so join her for dinner at Breeks agn.ordered baked pasta,ice lemon tea and lemonade.the pasta doesn't taste good.went hme after that.actually i was very happy at the beginning.bt whn i was in Megaque,Kenneth walked in and told me that he saw 'HER' with 'HIM'together.my mood dropped from the heaven to hell.so once agn i did somethg tat unhealthy...hope that time will help me to forget her.tat's all for 29/1/2009.

During new year

I've been quite busy before CNY.need to prepare lots of thg and clean up my hse.On the day before CNY,i had a reunion'lunch'with my family and grandma at my new hse.tis year is the first year we're nt havin our reunion meal with my uncle as we had moved out.I've been helpin my dad to decorate our new hse before CNY too.i'm the designer+worker.lols.kinda tired actually.on除夕that night,me and my family went to pray at different temples.有拜有保佑。haha.i slept at 4 somethg in the midnight tat day.an article stated that if you want your parents to live longer,you should sleep as late as you can on that night.(dunno whether thta's true or nt)^^.woke up at 10 somethg on the first day of new year.after dad woke up,we went to visit grandma and uncles.gt 3 packets of ang pao from thm.lol.after that went to grandpa's hse.the lil cutie(my cousin's daughter)was thr.she's stil new to this world as she's only one month old.her eyes is reali so big and she's vry cute.mum,y dun u born me with a pair of big and shiny eyes?T.T.on the 2nd day of new year,wk up at dunno wad time.lols.went out to McD at noon to meet Ray,Khai Lun and Eugene.went to Asia Heights after that.thn to MBS thr.Ray and Lun came to my hse at night and what?we all became'赌圣'inside my room.i lost bout 20.lol.i dun thk tat i'm suitable for gambling.went to Kek Lok Si Temple this morning with my mum.we tot tat the temple's going to open earlier as it's new year time.bt....we were wrong...we reached bout 8 and we've been waiting for half an hour doing ntg juz to enter the temple for praying.there're many tourist.some from local and some do not.soon after the gate was opened,i can see lots of tourist rushed into the temple.lol.i tot tat tis's a temple and since whn it became a shoppin mall or super market?(no discount for those who enter at 1st also).after finishing our praying,me n my mum went to hv our breakfast at the coffee shop near the market.Kassen sent me a msg whn i'm having my'Mee Jawa'.he said that he's going to visit Anthony and asked whether i'm going or nt.sure.why nt?went home to tk a bath and thn went to his hse.his mum tk us thr.we reached his hse bout 11 and knw wad?we were asked to blow a balloon until it burst before enterin his hse.(lame)we stayed at his hse from 11 til 3.30.lol.his hse has lots of thgs to play and eat.a very nice hse actually.bt unfortunately,his spot light has a lil bit of prob.tat's all for today.Going to GP 2moro.anyone wants to join?lol.nitez and sweet dreams to all my frens.

wk up bout 8.30 this morning.after washin up help mum to go market to buy something she needed.went granpa's hse after tat.tk some food for him.after tat went hme to pray.after i had a bath n my lunch i went to kassen's hse and wait him to go Gp.reach Gp bout 2 something.Raymond was thr with his fren.met Jeremy and Mathew during the way to meet Ray.went to Megaque for pooling.after pooling we went to sushi king to hv our lunch.Kassen ate a lot.lol.after that went for movie titled 'All's well end's well'.it's a comedy.lol.and it's quite funny.after the movie i went for shopping with them.bought 2 shirts at EchoPark.after tat went to Nike.met Ky,Jun Fong,Hock Sheng and their gang.lol.bought a pair of socks.after tat thought of wanted to get a new pair of slipper.went to Levi's but the slipper i saw last time wasn't thr anymore.so i went to Quiksilver.At last gt nothing cuz it's hard for me to make a decision whether to buy ex. or Quiksilver.Bt i feel Quiksilver's nicer.lol.(materialistic).met Jie Loon outside of Nando's thr.he's bck from Singapore to celebrate CNY.went to McD to get a cup of sundae cup.after tat Kassen's mum reached Gp to fetch us bck.went hme by motor from Kassen's hse.reached hme and thn went out agn with mum.2moro wil be the day before CNY.all ppl wil gt home and hv a reunion dinner with their beloved family.i'm going to hv a reunion dinner 2moro.grandma's coming to our new hse.miss grandpa so much.grandpa had been passing away for 4 years.kinda miss him actually.Grandpa,hw're u?i'm nt sure whether u can hear me or nt.juz hope to tell u tat all of us will mis you.tat's the end of today.hope everyone wil enjoy their dinner well with their family. Happy 牛Year!恭喜发财！

arrived at sch 7.25 this morning.heard a bad news.chuin shern met with an accident again last night.i tot ky was just joking.bt after jun fong came,he confirmed tat wad ky say is true.(his lagenda 110 ended it's life yest)lol.this time,cs injured much more serious thn last time.saw 'her'durin ttn.she looked happy.wishin u all the best.went to visit cs after ttn juz nw.cs,hope u'll gt well soon so tat we cn go out together.help dad to decorate our hse juz nw.kinda headache of hw to do it nicely.lol.any volunteer to help?Chinese New Year is juz around the corner.quite excited as i can collect lots of ang paus and just play around.at first tot of cs thy all goin to come my hse during new year.nw?i guess i go his hse better.go play poker with him.lol.once again i would like to wish all of u恭喜发财and新年快乐。enjoy!

给我一首歌的时间

一首歌的时间有多长？大概只有那4至5分钟的时间吧。或许这对那些活了大半辈子的人根本就没什么吧。但是在这世上是有多少人多么渴望这一段短短的时间。。。那些还没机会伸出头来看看这美好世界的夭折婴儿，他们是多么渴望这4-5分钟，至少让他们看看他们的父母，好让他们知道是谁照顾了他们那短暂的时刻。我？我幸运得多了，我活了十六年了，还有那几个月的时间我就要踏入十七岁了，但我也曾渴望这短暂的时间。。。我希望他们能再给我一首歌的时间，让我再面对面和他们说：“我爱你。。。”。或许不是你们的错，是我在拥有时不懂得珍惜。。。很多时候我们在犯错以后才来后悔。其实，这种情况是可以避免的。不是全部人都有机会重来，那我们就不要让自己有藉口犯错。一个小小的错误或许在我们眼里是毫不起眼的，但想深一层，我们已经让对方的心在淌血了。我们永远都不会晓得下一分钟会发生什么事或我们还会有多久的时间留在这世上，所以我们应该珍惜。珍惜爱我们的人，也珍惜我们爱的人。朋友们，人生最怕不是离开，而是在离开之前的遗憾。时间是无价之宝，再富有的人也无法买回前一分钟以前的时间。所以，请珍惜。不要再为自己找藉口让别人给我们一首歌的时间。。。因为他们不可能永远这么做。

bad day...

went to sch as usual.bt havin a bad startin of the day.the 1st period was Bio lesson.form teacher who's the one who teachin my class Bio.after she entered our class the 1st thg she mentioned is to switch our sittin in class(me,jun fong,khong yi,chuin shern n liew ching).i was lk wtf?!y suddenly wan2 do tis?!she explained tat some teachers(our math teacher,chemist n history teachers)have been complainin five of us makin noise in class during their lessons!com'on which student in CLHS doesn't talk durin lessons?!except they hv some problems or mayb thy're actin emo!lol.so we had a fight with our Bio teach.(act is nt her fault la).we've been fightin so hard to get bck our human right!lol.at lax we managed to convince our teacher tat we'll change our sittin place durin math,chemist n history lessons.(we're guai gia also k?).i tot everythg is goin to bck to normal.mana tau durin recess time i gt caught by a stupid dog!(so called as prefect).reason of gettin caught by tat stupid dog?my socks...i thk dogs are quite sensitive to clothes,especially those u lk a great smell of my clothes~!lol.i've tried all my effort to pull my socks so it looks longer and to satisfy him as well.bt it seems lk my socks is reali too short.so after pullin i juz walked away to go to find my technique assist's incharge teacherfor the duty stuffs.bt tat stupid dog juz cant satisfy.he tried to block me by usin his hand(dirty!)to pull my shirt!mtf!do u knw tat tis's an offence?!i told him to let go bt he's juz too stuborn.i pushed him away and told him nt to touch me away or thr'll be somethg goin to happen.he walked away by copyin my sch no. into his smelly book.i tot ntg's going to happen after this so i juz walked into my class.bt...durin moral lesson another dog entered my class.he said mr koh(discipline teach)wants to see me.whn i enter his room he took out my record card(red card)i thk only CLHS students knw wad's tat.he showed it to me.he asked me do i knw why he wants to see me?i ans yes.(i'm nt an idiot k?)thn he started his lesson.title?"the management of our emotions and temper".talkin these stupid issues to me pula...adui!amat kesali utk memaklumi anda bahawa ini tidak berkesan kpd saya!whn he's done with his great speech,he gv me 2 choices.1)1 stroke of cane.2)1 small dimerit.i chose the 1st choice for sure la!becuz i cnt afford to gt any small dimerit as i'm at the border line of going to gt expell.ouch!after the canin process i went bck class.stay bck after sch for duty.after tat i tot dad's goin 2 fetch me hme.bt...i've been callin his phone for numberous of time bt he just din ans.thn i walked to mum's workin place as it's juz some distance from my sch.tk motor's key frm her n ride hme.went ttn at 8 and was sittin with kenneth,merritt n Zosco(bro of Bosco wo...).i juz tk a bread before i started my lesson.damn hungry nw.k la.stop here.goin for supper with dad n mum.nitez to everybody.

relief!

once agn i would lk to say thx to all of my frens.thx u all for ur support,i feel much beta rite nw.juz nw a fren of mine came 2 chat wid me.she told me a lot.she teached me a lot as well.i've realised tat hw stupid i am.dear frens,i'll cheer up!promise!went to ttn juz nw at anthony ttn center.i was sittin beside Kassen.he's upset too.(recently kinda lot of ppl facing tis type of probs le...walao!)we wrote an equation.（看开=困难=面对=悲伤=乐观=难受=麻醉=孤单）.lol.a love equation(kinda swt reali).my fren sittin beside also wrote a sentence tat's quite meaningful.actually,i reali want to thank all my frens.thy do help me a lot from gettin out wad i'm facing.especially to Kassen,Liew,CS,Ky,and Vivs.lol.i feel relief nw!wadever happened juz let it be.i'll keep on moving and i believe tat i cn be beta!love is nt everythg as i said,nw i thk most imporatnt is my future,my SPM!i hv to work vry hard to gt closer to my ambition and my dreams!tat's all for today.5 mins more to another brand new day!new life!hooray!

真爱

这世界上真的有真爱的存在吗？或许真的有，但我还未曾遇见。这几天我和朋友的话题都围绕在爱。我是真的很伤心。他们安慰我说别伤心了，你一定会找到更好的！谢谢你们！。在2007年8月28日这一天，我和她开始了一段感情。她是很多人眼里的好女孩，我起初也是这么认为的。2009年1月2日，我们维持了1年4个月的感情结束了。真爱这两个字也渐渐离我越来越远。曾经许下的承诺也只是美丽的谎言。她们都曾经这么说：“我一辈子都会爱着你！我要永远和你在一起！”但事实都和她们说的相反！有些在一起一段时间以后便开始感到厌倦，开始和另一些男生暧昧！有些在分手后的一星期内便和另一个男生约会！或许我一个朋友说的是对的。她说在这个年龄的时候恋爱都是最愚蠢的。因为我们都还不够成熟来面对爱情，为什么我们要自找伤害呢？爱一个人一点都不容易，但是要放下一个人比爱她还难上很多！我为了已经变质的爱情流下无数的眼泪和热血，可是她们懂吗？她们会在非常快速的时间内把你忘记然后很快的又开始另一段爱情。可笑吗？我付出的是一片真心，但换来的却是无数的伤痛和绝情！我曾经躲在角落一个人哭泣，哭久了我开始笑了！为何？笑我是一个大傻瓜！为什么要在每一次被人用尖利无比的剑往心里狠狠的插上了刀才会知道那种难以形容的痛呢？！我对她说过，我是一个小丑。一个只为别人带来欢乐但自己却在暗地里哭泣的小丑！我敢说我对你付出的是真爱！但是你却还给了我绝情！爱情，真的是非常折磨人的一个东西！我好想问问天神，你为何要为人类制造七情六欲？让人类生活在充满痛苦的世界里！我真的爱你，但你是真的爱我吗？我不懂。我只想说：“你变得好快！”

Hurt!

once again i'm bec to blogspot.honestly.these few days i'm reali vry down and sad.reason?LOVE.our realtionship tat last for 16 months ended up in a very funny way.juz few days of arguements and this made our love end up.i knw that i might be wrong.i tried so hard just to get her bec!conclusion?it ends up with my tears fallin and she had a date with a guy,a guy that her fren likes for half a year.i looked bec the msgs tat i saved in my phone,suddenly i feel tat all those msgs are so funny!1 of the msgs was writen lk tis:i'll love u 10ever and i wnt change,i'm diff with them(my ex gf tat used to dump me as easy as drinkin water).bt finally?she follows their path.she said tat she wanted 2 be alone and she doesn't want to involve herself in any relationship whn i went to find her at her hse's downstairs last tuesday.bt few days later,her mum gave me a call.she asked me whether if she's with me?(she did not tel her mum tat we've broke up for some of her own purpose i thk).i answered no.soon after her mum hang up the cal,i called her fren.she told me somethg tat i reali cnt accept at all!she's datin for with a college guy!omFg!my tears drop down straight away after i heard tis...her fren is reali a vry gud fren!reali!even though she's sad too bt she asked me dun ever tel her abt tis.she hopes tat she cn be together happily with tat guy...i feel reali hurt!Y she cn change for so fast?!i tot tat she's totally different.at least she's a gud gal to me.bt i'm wrong!she's juz as same as others!those promises seems silly to me!i'll beside u forever,i'll only love u!wtf!wad i cn say is tat u're such an excellent liar!i suggest tat u should change ur ambition for being a designer to be an actress!i guarantee tat u'll be such a great actress and u might get an award!i wnt believe in any eternity love anymore!at least nt for nw!because i've seen a lot of frens or ppl around me badly hurt by all those sweet bt fake promises!included myself!i hope tat u'll realise ur mistake 1 day!even though i'm badly hurt by u,bt i stil love u!i'm such a fool!a fool tat badly hurt by u!